Ok so the last thing I wrote on here was more than 6 months ago. And I did nothing. Today I changed that. Today I went outside by myself with the two kiddos. I placed Logan on the baby carrier and I took Mia on her "titi" which she calls pink car. I got everything ready and headed out. We went to the kids play area and then around the lake. IT FELT GREAT!! I can't let fear take over my life. It has been exactly 2.5 years that I really haven't left the house on my own like this. Afraid to explore, afraid of the outside world. More than anything paranoid actually. See MY LIFE has not been easy for many reasons. And I can no longer live in a dark box holding back being afraid. There is constant negativity around me and quite frankly i've been sick of it for long time but now i'm just done with it. It cannot and will not overtake my life. I was really happy to see Mia play and direct me into the way she wanted to go as i pushed her in her "titi". Logan was looking around at everything, stayed awake as much as he could absorbing the sun's rays for some Vit. D until he finally passed out fast asleep. Got to see some neighbors and their dogs, really it felt good. I didn't panic, not one moment, so it's a start. I'm already looking forward to our next adventure, hopefully I get to meet some new mommies and maybe make playdates. But one thing at a time.
Truly, I've been missing out. I got to take some wonderful pics of the outing, they've been posted on Instagram.
Overcoming obstacles...I'm The Queen on Making it Happen...I'm Heidy the Great and don't you ever, ever forget!
Baby steps!!
XOXO
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